I miss him I do. I hate him too. I miss the fantasy of the good in him. I was fooled and am still a fool. Anger is mine, every time I can see. My heart is the real culprit. It's easier to hate than to feel. The craziness. The mess. Why I put up with the stress? Something within me. ... Continue Reading →
I've been meaning to write but have had such a plethora of emotion lately, I didn't know where to start. So many goodbyes life brings about, along with anticipations and doubts of new hellos that sometime play "fear the reaper" I think, without us even realizing it. Fearing new hellos, or fearing there won't ever be a new hello. I guess, I... Continue Reading →
I just got on the express bus into the city on my way to work, took a seat and popped out the laptop. I realize this is the last Friday that I will be taking this bus, this route....from the place where I have lived for the last 10 months (after relocating back from California). Another switch. Another change. ... Continue Reading →
Darn I'm sad and damn, I suck at over. More importantly, I am the one who feels rejected/dejected/dissed/tossed/thrown to the dogs, ya know....ego de-boosting things. I didn't even want it anymore! Or did I ever really? Or, am I just being a spoiled ego driven brat who didn't get what she wanted the way she wanted and pissed because... Continue Reading →
So I'm sitting on a hill in a park with my dog Lil' Cowboy (Cowboy for short or Shithead when he's being a ding-a-ling). I am about to meet his new family and I am dreading it and waiting for them to arrive doesn't make it easy. Just want to get it over with. Not... Continue Reading →
Say Goodbye to Hollywood,Say Goodbye My Baaaby.Say Goodbye to Hollywood,Say Goodbye My Baaaaayby.Life changes everfast. Everquick. Like that (snap!). Cali. Behind me? Hollywood, no more???