Mourning Has Broken…

I miss him I do.  I hate him too.  I miss the fantasy of the good in him.  I was fooled and am still a fool.  Anger is mine, every time I can see.  My heart is the real culprit.  It's easier to hate than to feel.  The craziness.  The mess. Why I put up with the stress?  Something within me. ... Continue Reading →

This Too Shall….

Today I am hurting very much.  I am solemnly experiencing all sorts of feelings but mostly fear and extreme sadness and hurt.  I am keeping with the idea to let go and accept life as it has played out and trust that all is for a reason and that life will take me where I... Continue Reading →

“Lonely” (x5), Time.

It's hard, when the weekend comes.  When you and me are no longer.  The missing you begins.  Or rather is more apparent. It was hard, when the weekend came.  When me and you were together but didn't get along.  The wanting to lose u began.  Or rather was more apparent. Which is better?  To be with the love that hurts or... Continue Reading →

Love, A Many Splintered Thing

I've heard that in a relationship, as long as you like or get along with the person 51% of the time, it's a good thing.  If it's 49%, you're in trouble and you may want to re-think the relationship.  It's funny what a few percentage points can do. I'm not quite sure I buy into this... Continue Reading →

Flip The Flap Jack

After all these years....and all those moments when I have raced against the paper cover dolup thingy to get my butt to the toilet seat before the auto flush had a chance to flush, sucked in the paper and then pull it down, I have had a flap awakening!  Those times, when one is not at home and too tired to stand,... Continue Reading →

Rock & Roll and Lettin’ It Go.

Freaky?  Weird?  Screwed up?  Did I say weird?  Kind of surreal....and out of the "is this really going down" book of situations.  This was my experience the first part of the night, last night.  Throughout this demeanor, my emotional side, and my "see it for what it is" was all intact and I was able to... Continue Reading →

Undercover Therapy

What I love about my family, as crazy as we all are at times, is that we are very close.  How cool is it that I get to my mother's house last night after a day in Manhattan.  My brother is in the bedroom watching tv sitting on the bed working on his laptop.  I ask him if it... Continue Reading →

To Be Or Not To

What a wonderfully perfect day today was. Because I let go and let be it all just went and ended up going the way I always wanted something to go like and for me, there were parts out of a story book that happened.....because I just let it be what is was and didn't try... Continue Reading →

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